After Hours
Much to our dismay, Japan is still under stress, coping with everything including the meltdown. Two good friends of mine are still there. One of my best friends is still in Nagoya trying to find a way to drive down south away from Fukushima. Not nice of an opening, I know, but these are facts.
I had a good gig at Route 196 tonight. The people were great, though Paul had to skip tonight’s gig due to his cooties. Matt Warren of Ephesus was kind enough to take Paul’s spot and cover and even played some extra songs to please the crowd.
Ah, I miss Baguio. I miss Lady, Pablo, Axis that Wednesday night with Jaz and Zelimir, Kalaw and the people around it, plus plus. The other day I was just having flashbacks of how my day would be if I had decided to not take the studio job and get a life. I would be having coffee at 11 am in the cold weather with fresh flowers and listening to random music I don’t have to necessarily like too much; but look forward to a day that’s so calm and wait for an evening at Rumours, see Inyong, the nice bartenders there and Norma, the cashier. Lest we forget Andy who co-owns it with his partner — such a nice couple those two.
But this is me now, all for the sake of devoting my life entirely to music without worrying about the future too much (that it needs to be dealt with now). I’m having fun at work — that I wouldn’t really call it work so much — only if I lived a little closer. Everybody at Loudbox has been helpful and I wrote my first arrangement today, besides my first box casting and it seems to have made the cut, so I’m happy about those little victories.
Life really isn’t that peachy, but it can be if you put yourself somewhere you deserve to be. Trust that anything can happen and that if things don’t go so well, you’ve got yourself, and that’s more than enough company to get you through.
Looking forward to tomorrow,
Armi
I have always been a fan, and it was my first time to see your band live tonight, and — I’m sorry but listening to your CD does not at all compare to the power of your music and your voice LIVE. It just…makes the world better for even half an hour. Thank you for an amazing night.
I will try to help pray for the safety of your friends, Ms. Millare.
I am glad that you devote yourself to making the great music that you do. Even if it can get frustrating and scary.
Thank you for the kind words.
And about devotion to anything you love, that’s just what love deserves from us.
I have a friend who just came home from Japan. She lives in Chiba, works as a nurse and part time nursery teacher, and they were near the place where the oil plant was on fire. Luckily, they managed to get away and at a safe area. And they just got here in Manila a few hours ago. I am so relieved.
it’s been a while since I’ve been to gigs…(especially UDD gigs). In fact, I haven’t been going out properly for AGES…save for a few dinners and trips to the mall for whatever errands that needed to be done…or work.
Even before the Japan Quake/Tsunami, I don’t go out much is because I feel the shift of the winds differently. It’s erratic and unsettling. And I don’t want to leave my family or any of my loved ones out of my sight because of that. I became more clingy…paranoid even. I can’t sleep.
Then the Japan Quake happened. Which only intensified my fear of the said shift of winds.
Like anytime, our world will just turn upside down and it’ll be beyond our control. I want to start believing that this shift of winds will end eventually. And all will be alright. I can only hope.
But for now, I fear not just for my life, but for the people close to me.
Please be safe Armi.
I sort of have been living in fear. It’s quite hard to admit because I want to help uplift people with the music I make with the band, but sometimes reality just does set in and can’t help but mention it.
I’ve no other advice to blast on replay but to just be ready for anything. The world has its way of throwing in it’s surprises, puzzle pieces.
See you soon, dear.
“Life really isn’t that peachy, but it can be if you put yourself somewhere you deserve to be.”
huhuhu you always make sense armi.. I’m really dealing with the shifting-course-dilemma nowadays. psychology vs. film. I don’t know. I shall see you the next time I watch your gig again.. I miss you guys!
Psychology I would’ve taken up as well, but I probably wouldn’t have finished it the same way I had to stop music school because the band got too busy.
One of the few things in this life that can guarantee you something back is when you do something you love. So don’t waste your time doing something you won’t want to do seven days a week.
I still love psychology but the passion’s not there, I mean Film is really my dream course since 1st year high school, but another problem is my parents… I think they would really get mad if I did shift course because i’ll be 3rd year next school year. I don’t know…
I remember 3 days ago I came across the website of UP Institute of film and I saw the subjects offered and I just heard myself saying “shit this is where you belong”
By the way thank you Armi! when I become a cinematographer, or a director SOMEDAY, I’ll remember these things you said to me. I shall search for you to sing a song for the film i will make.. Yey!
I always find hope in your entries. I just lost my girlfriend– she died 2 months ago. Bec of her asthma. And I’m so lost and I’m only sixteen. My faith is shaking. I hope there really is a heaven. And I don’t even know why I’m saying this. Sorry. But thanks for the hope, Armi. You’re bipolar album is my lullabye now. I wish you could make a song about losing someone :”(
Sorry to hear about your girlfriend. I’m sure there’s no replacing her — just the same way there’s no replacing other people you still have in your life.
Make the most out of this life you’ve got because now you’re wiser, knowing how short it is.
Don’t close your doors to loving other people and don’t forget about yourself. At the end of the day, we are all we’ve got and we really get what we give.